This year has been, hands down, the absolute hardest year I’ve ever been through in my life. A break-up with Abby’s dad after 11 years together. Major life-changing health stuff. And all of the financial, personal, organizational, etc issues that go along with those things. Sigh. But, things are calming down – the waves have stopped crashing, and my boat is finally steadying itself a bit.
This year has taught me that life is more unpredictable than you can imagine. That the world hands out heartbreak easily – like tossing candy in a parade. That time is short and never guaranteed – your own, and the time you get with those you love. So I have grown quite impatient with the bullshittery, and worrying what others think (which I’ve always let bother me too much.) My plan now is to seek happiness wherever I can, hold it tightly when I find it, and give no worry to what others think about things. And in this month of giving thanks, I’m definitely counting my blessings every darn day, grateful to still be here :)